Nothing happened in particular to make me feel this way. Rather, my mind worked against me to convince me that I was incredibly inferior in comparison to my castmates and as a result, I spent much of the rehearsal doubting my abilities.
Which sucks.
Obviously, I was cast in this production for a reason, no? So. Why am I thinking so negatively about my performance capabilities?
The pressure to do well is immense. It's unlike anything I've ever felt before, so it's easy to understand how anxious feelings can pop up every now and then. But when I'm so excited about the production and just so happy to be working with such wonderful people, it seems a little ridiculous to let those feelings get to me.
I'm purposing to stop this from happening. I want to be at my best as much as possible, so negative energy is just not going to work with me.
I need to start taking care of myself - and loving myself. It's the self-hate and self-doubt that will let me down in the end, really.
Taking some inspiration from Kate Nash - if I sing it to myself, maybe the stupid brain will stop the sh*t.
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